I'm in a special place and I have been for a while now.  Last week Dancer flew back to Australia.  despite being delayed for two hours at the airport because of a little crash, she made it home ok.  She's been in touch...  considerably more than I expected and we're both having a hard time of it. 

It's the right thing to do of course, we both know it, but knowing doesn't make it any easier.  She has to finish university.  She has to sort her head out.  I have to sort my head out.  But right now we're sticking with it.  Things can change and probably will...  the universe is fickle, but usually plays to my advantage.  Wow, that's arrogant isn't it? but then I am a Shiney Hero.

I've been trying to re-organise my life.  Topping my priorities is finding a new job.  I'm still not certain I.T is for me but seeing as I'm better at it than most people...  including all the people I work with (without exception)...  It's something that can make me money.  With money comes freedom, freedom that is acceptable and within society's bounds.  There are other sorts of freedom but those paths end in fire and i'm not that desperate yet.  It's all relative anyway.

I'm eating better, more vegetables, and not gorging myself..  though I feel like I'm drinking more.  I guess that counteracts my good work doesn't it.

Sure, I've been knocked down.  I'm just finding my feet again.